wait or go

That closed door with a heavy padlock so secured , so dead. Will your steps follow the treads or will my stare on this flight..remain idle. Will I hear your laughter..and watch you roll your eyes..teasing me..with tongue stuck out..and a wink..to delight..it was just yesterday..we walked hand in hand..up and down..this lane..today..it seemed so strange..you are not here for me…waving your hands in frenzy..you were always a bit crazy….I liked your unexpected hugs..and kisses on my cheeks…yet..I never thought you would leave me..without a word..but you are gone..I buried you deep…with tears and wails…in a coffin with nails..why do I still stand here and gaze away..with tears that brim..and fall so free..please come back to me…

when and where?

Those that lives..must die. Now and then..here or there..but they must taste death..sweet or sour. Some people want to live for a reason ..others are finding a reason to live…but those who got both..are they living ? or breathing..but then life is not the end..it is a motion..that death  put it on hold..till we get resurrected for the Day of Judgement….who lives for that day ? Who wants to find a good report card , when we can not blame anyone..but ourselves..we can not hide..nor run..no fun…just waiting for a very long time..to be judged..and told..where to now? Heaven or Hell ?If score  gets equal…we wait again..watching heaven with hope and fearing hell..as there are no ropes within to climb out from this fire..that burns skin..mauls the body..hurt the soul…cry as loud as you want…no one can hold it down…the day has come…when will you be called…and where will you go ?

Did you bring any goodness before you died ?Any good deeds..you can present? what? none….then you are doomed…and it is worst than death…it is a life forever..where you will die endlessly and suffer…unless..you were clever while you lived on earth..and did good deeds….YOU WILL BE NEEDING THAT !

The night

it was a dark night..when all the lights of the huge manor were lit…and on the floor was a body…who was she…a man was sitting close to her..he was holding her hand..feeling her cold waves..and shiver within…was she moving or it was his imagination…He wanted to have this last sleep with her..not wanting to let go..he had placed her on the hard  marble floor..tomorrow it will be a casket..he will let her go…she will get buried under the huge earth…..right.now..he was looking at her..closed eyes..he remembered how those sparkled..when he would enter the room..she would smile..looking at him…but now she seems upset..she  is no more looking at his face..touching his jaw line…her hands are stiff..doesn’t move..nor loves…is it because she is no more…how tragic to see love of your life…be so still…so cold…so dead

Racing thoughts

I want to forget

this nagging rage

spoiling my face

wrinkled brows

oh! not again

I want to stop..

that murmuring roar

anger soars

and I kneel to admit

like many times before

Yes..it hurts me a lot

It snatches my smile

from lips and eyes

wish..I could stop

Never..does it go

or let me go..

why..words are harsh

why do they kill

if once..I could perhaps bear it still

Life what can you give


What I want from life am I worth or not..Did I try enough ? When would I learn to turn my wishes  into reality..how much will I endure to achieve my goal..or is it not me..but another person..who will give me a reason to be happy…I must look deep in my heart..search my mind..and juggle my thoughts..and find my answers before I question life to be..what it is not now..but I want it to be..I want my life to be happy…